Intro

First post, new blog, and I am very excited for the experience.

This is intended for the most part to document my journey towards finally becoming a mother (hopefully!), but also to record my musings, opinions, life experiences.  When I was young, I dreamed one day of becoming a writer.  I used to write short stories, dream up ideas for books, and wrote for the school newspaper and yearbook.  Somehow in the middle of college, I just…fell out of it.  I don’t know what happened, but I vaguely remember a freshman writing group and receiving some pretty harsh criticism on a story I had based on a personal experience, being told it was “elitist, trite” and in short, “not very good.”  I can still taste the feeling of being so wounded by those words.  It seems funny to think about it now, after all this time.  I’ve always wanted to believe that I’m the type of person that can accept criticism, but this experience humbled me and since then, I’ve always wondered whether it’s the reason I stopped writing.

I’ve followed the blogs of other people for years now, and have always wanted to start one.  Now just feels like the right time.  My husband and I are on the cusp of a major life change, finally trying to have a baby after seventeen years together, fifteen of them married, and having weathered a series of ups and downs, the “downs” being definitely more extreme than the “ups.”  We feel that we are finally in a place in life where we would be good parents, as we have finally reached a point where we are good not only to each other, but to ourselves.  I know that when a lot of people say they are finally ready for a baby, they are talking about the fact that they have already purchased a home, have money in the bank, are secure in their careers, etc.  We did buy a house last year, but truthfully there is never enough money in the bank, and careers in this economy aren’t a sure thing anymore, for anyone.  I’m not sure if there is ever such a thing as “financially ready” when deciding to become a parent.  Emotionally ready though?  Yes, damn straight! 

Now, here's hoping that my physical self will cooperate.